Chapter 1 of a New Book

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Well here goes nothing. These legs have pushed me through so much, but I never knew they’d push me through this. I’ve been wanting to write a post about something that has been on my mind for quite a few years now. I’ve dealt with depression and suicidal ideation for some time and I’ve stayed extremely quiet about it. It wasn’t until recently when I opened up to my fiancé Lil that I realized I didn’t have to face this demon alone. Opening up to her allowed me to open up to others that are close to me and seek some kind of help. Out of a few things that really helped me the one thing that sticks out to me the most is getting back in the gym, lifting regularly pushing myself and feeling proud of who I am. Running marathons are still in the back of my mind and I will get back, I promise Coach Liz!

I would be lying if I said that I still don’t get anxiety and the depression doesn’t creep in from time to time but realizing that I can talk about it with someone and do something like lift, cycle or run to affect how I feel have made things so much better.

If you are out there and dealing with anything in your life; always remember that you are not alone! It’s ok to talk about and there are always people out there that want to listen to you. It is time to break the stigma.

I’m glad I found the I DON’T MIND campaign; it’s given me drive to start something new. My next post will be the first manifesto and the first chapter to Lifting With It; a blog series that I hope will help connect people who are dealing with anxiety, depression and suicidal ideation and bring them together to prove that you are not alone. I’ll also be sharing how being physical (lifting and soon back to running) has helped me throughout all this. Let’s talk!

Breaking Barriers

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I’ve been scared of these numbers. Seems like a funny thing to say but screw it. Time to break some of these PRs. I haven’t thought about these numbers in a long time. I think I was ignoring them because I felt that they were impossible a part of a past that would never be revisited. While watching someone give it their all and try and break a 2-hour marathon all I could think is why the hell not just go out and try to break some of my barriers. It reminded me of why I started running, what it felt like to be out there and feel my feet pound against the pavement.

It was time to get some new shoes, lace them up and say “fuck it, let’s make this happen once and for all”. Even though these PRs are from a couple years ago; where my current fitness stands feels like a world apart from then. Biking has help me get my fitness out of a completely sedentary state. I’ve dropped a few pounds so fingers crossed my back and joints don’t hurt when I run. The next steps are just that, getting out the door and putting one foot in front of the other. I can’t thank Pink Feathers enough for standing in my corner through my inconsistency and help me power through this phase of running life. Time to find out which PR I want to break first.

I miss writing about my running journey like I did on my old blog. I feel like it was a way to keep me motivated and on track. I also miss the community it built. So I want to hear from you now. What are some of your barriers that you are training to break?

 

February of Cycling

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I’ve learned a lot of things in February; one of the main things is that I actually love cycling! Over the past 2 years running just quite hasn’t been working out for me. I know February isn’t quite over yet but I did want to go over a few the past 30 days.

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The month started with a bike tune-up, the purchase of a Wahoo-Kikr (a smart-trainer for indoor training), along with clip in shoes. With the new kicks and a bike feeling brand new I had all the motivation I needed to get out the door every day. The first week was a little light on miles as I started to get used to riding and gauging just how far I could go without killing myself.

During the next two weeks I worked up the courage to venture out of my comfort zone and get a few longer rides in. Along with that my wattage started to increase. The final week I truly found my stride. With 4 double-digit days I was able to reach 82.5 miles and really start pushing the wattage and pace.

What I realized during all these miles is how much I really did miss getting outside. Weight gain and running with all the weight was making the process and being outside less enjoyable due to aches and pains that would hold me back. I found freedom on the bike, I could push myself like I used to, and being outside was AMAZING! So what’s in store for the future? I signed up for a cycling 50 miler in May and I’m sticking with Pinkfeathers to get me to the finish-line and beyond.

 

Already Ran More Days Than 2016

 

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Well not quite but it sure as hell feels like that. I am on the strongest 3 week streak I have been on in over 2 years. The past 700+ days have been extremely inconsistent at best when it came to training or running of any sort. For some reason these past few weeks have completely different. I feel so happy when I run again. Things are like they used to be… no better than they used to be when it comes to running. The past few runs I’ve felt relaxed, calm and collected. If it wasn’t for the tight calves that are causing me to get some ankle pain I feel like I can run forever.

I can say for certainty that I am back on the training for sure this time. The only thing that is somewhat holding me back right now is my lack of not stretching. My calves are tight and it’s starting to cause a few problems. But I just need to keep reminding myself that if I don’t want to be benched anymore I need to take care of myself.

My 1st race is the Paramount 5K. It is a little over a month away. I haven’t been this excited to train in a VERY long time. Getting on that line on Feb. 20 is going to be one of the best feelings. I honestly don’t remember what it feels like to race but I do remember that I loved it and it always made me happy.

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Here it goes. One more year down and a life time more to go. This past year has been all over the place. Personally it has gone amazing on the relationship side. The running side could be going much better but at least I’m trying now.

  • Report more regularly to Coach Liz.
  • Run at least 4 days out of the week for the 1st quarter of the year.
  • Run at least 5 days out of the week for the 2nd quarter of the year.
  • Run at least 27 days out of the month for the last half of the year.
  • Run 5 5ks.
  • Run 2 10ks.
  • Run a half marathon.
  • Practice yoga at least 3 times a week.
  • Read 1 new book a month.
  • Don’t be afraid to make changes that I want.
  • Write more on here! That is a promise.

Q&A: Kaley Klasson

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I got the chance to catch up with my first yoga instructor. I stepped into her class during my Junior year of college about 5 years ago and she has sincerely changed my view on life and how I approach my practice. Her classes and knowledge had always hit home and were not only challenging but eye-opening.

What got you into the practice?

My father. He invited me to my first Bikram class when I was sixteen after a dance injury. I loved the heat and physicality of Bikram, but didn’t leave the studio feeling inspired. Then four days later he took me to a vinyasa studio that I would later teach at, I left feeling connected, inspired and rinsed out! I’ve practiced nearly every day since that flow class.

What is your philosophy about your yoga practice?

I can summarize my yoga practice in five words: Breath. Movement. Intention. Delight. Exploration.

What is a tool in order to remember your intention in class?

Create a pre-class ritual. As student and teacher I have a prayer + affirmation + intention that I repeat everyday before I step into the studio. The structure of this practice stays similar from day to day but I make minor adjustments to my ritual as it feels like a natural and good fit for me. This art of proclamation helps me set the intentional pace for my practice and/or teachings.

What drew you to teaching?

My love for the transformational blessings & benefits of yoga and thus my exceptional hunger to share this ancient practice with the world.

What is your proudest moment as a teacher?

Co-facilitating a yoga teacher training in Africa for under-privileged youth. It was life changing.

What is your most impactful memory when it comes to your yoga practice?

My most cherished memory as a yoga student is meeting two of my best friends at my first training in upstate New York seven years ago. I still talk to Victoria and David nearly every week. On the last day the three of us held hands in svasana and for however silly it sounds, I knew in that moment that we would be soulfully and intrinsically connected forever.

Share something about you that your past students may not know?

Hmm. This is a really broad strokes question.
My biggest vices are: coffee, talk shows and reading the last sentence of a book before I start the first chapter.

What are your three favorite songs and one song you have to have in a playlist?

There are two songs I include on almost every yoga playlist.

  1. Bowspirit by Balmorhea
  2. Hari Om (Tiruvannalalai) by Janet Stone

My three favorite songs right now are:

  1. I’ll Let You Know by David Hazeltine
  2. Para Que Sufrir by Natalia Lafourcade
  3. Anything on the Lemonade album by Beyonce

If you had one day and zero responsibilities and could travel anywhere what would you do?

Spend a day in Paris with my man. Yoga and coffee would be a must. Other than that I would delight in simply exploring the city at our leisure.

Sidenote: After sharing this with my boyfriend he disagreed. He thought my perfect day would be spent playing with baby elephants in one of our most favorite places–South Africa. But I still think elephants would come in a close second to France and all of her artistic, culinary and romantic charm.

What do you find you are dreaming about the most?

Anything and everything. I’m a dreamer, but I’m also very much a doer; so I like to think they balance each other out quite well.

If you could give only 1 piece of advice to someone practicing yoga what would it be?

Let yourself be led.

Brobird for Life

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It has been a year since I joined the Oiselle Volée team and became an official Brobird. I still haven’t had the chance to put on their colors and toe a starting line, so why am I re-committing myself to this team today? Because being apart of a team isn’t about what is spread across your chest as you stride around a track or down the street, it is leaps and bounds beyond that.

Being apart of team is about supporting each other and being supported. Oiselle is the full embodiment of supporting those who support them (and then some). I have always been a huge fan of Oiselle ever since I was first introduced to them a little over 3 years ago when a friend jokingly suggested their Distance short to me (for those that don’t know, Oiselle is a Women’s only athletic closing line). What I learned about the company in my search for the shorts really struck a chord with me. Not only did I find a perfect pair of shorts with more than enough pockets to hold all my belongings needed for a full marathon, I found a company that focuses its energy on driving the needle for Women in track / distance running. There aren’t many groups out there that do this, much less a full company. Most of the people that I look to for inspiration in running and life are fearless Women, something that Oiselle is full of. From our fearless leader Sally, to the professional Haute Volée team we look up to and all the ladies that make up the entire flock, Oiselle Volée or not, you are what make being apart of this team so inspirational.

Oiselle Volée Mission: To create a sisterhood of support at a variety of levels from beginners to professionals, from the roads to the trails to the track. We are committed to fostering a team that challenges, supports and empowers runners of all ages, backgrounds, and abilities. Each of our stories are interwoven into one collective voice and that voice is behind every mile and every individual flight.

I am a Brobird for life because I am proud to be part of something bigger than just a logo on a racing kit and a few message boards. I am proud of the community and the company that is championing for their amazing athletes and all Women in sports. That is why I am making it a point to toe the line this season with the Oiselle kit on my back and race my heart out for the Flock.